Since no one cares about my feelings I’m not going to care about anyone elses either. I’m no longer going to filter what I say or do. Happy Fucking New Year
I can take any compliment you give me and turn it into an insult. One of the reasons I hate every fiber of my being.
I hate myself, I’m so selfish. There are children all over the world that didn’t get anything and here I am complaining that I got 10 pairs of shoes and nothing to wear with it. But I always saw my mom with all these shopping bags so I assumed that I was going to get mounds and mounds of clothes, the only clothing I got was a faux fur coat from Forever 21.
She’s gotten sicker and thinner. I know I should be more concerned about her and not myself, but I can’t help it. Something always goes awry around Christmas and its out of my control.